ONE BILLION YEARS LATER

Hey loyal readers... if you are still alive. Sorry for the complete lack of content in the last several months... frankly there is not all that much blog worthy stuff in my life right now. But here are some tidbits.

I am once again figuring out how to play music. I actually wrote a fun guitar riff for the band Walhof and I are hoping to start performing as. At the moment it is just us two, under the moniker "Run Rabbit Run". Drum and down-tuned guitar. I have no idea if people would like whatever we end up producing (we are still working on that practice thing) but I sure miss performing.

It is Christmas and as with every Christmas I use half my brain to be glad that long lost friends and far away relatives are around again. The other have is busy missing the people who aren't around, for whatever reason. I am terrible at not finding special occasions bittersweet. But there always seems to be someone missing at some point.

I have thought a lot about life in the last months, especially while trying to support friends in their struggles. I have determined that, for whatever reason (I credit the fallenness of creation usually) life can be great, but there is something always missing. Right now, life is grand for me. I am with a wonderful girl, I have enough friends around that I don't feel alone. But work is work. It isn't what I want to be doing, it is what I am able to do to provide for myself. And that sense of my inability to fulfill what I feel God has called me to be pursuing has been draining on me at times. So even when life is stable and drama free, it remains imperfect. Just what has been on my mind off and on.

Well, I hope some folks notice I wrote again, and hope to update this ol' blog a little more regularly, though it may be with less drama and soul baring that I have previously done... because there isn't much to bare my soul about right now.

cheers, Merry Christmas